The beginning

So when I was 16 I meet my first ever boyfriend it only lasted a few a months but it showed me what relationships where going to be like for the rest of my life he was the guy I lost my virginity too but that wasnt my first sexaul incounter.

When I was 15 I messed around with a boy from my school we were great friends and I always fancied him but he only played me as over one summer he turned hot and all the girls fell in love with him but I liked him before he was got but always got pushed to the back and he started seeing the hottest girl in school and never had time to hangout with me anymore and when it ended badly of course he came crawling back to the group of friends he left behind the boys took him back but I didn't want fuck all to do with him so decided to to leave school and head to college to leave the drama behind me and thats when i meet my first boyfriend through a friend that came to college with me.

So I didn't have a great view on boys from the start I ended up dumping my first boyfriend through text on the way to the next boyfriends house I had no regrets I was young and didn't give a shit about other peoples feelings and had become addicted to the feeling I got when I was with a man

Why write this blog

I have started thinking lately about my past as I have moved contry, job and found myself a new man all at the beginning of this year the year that will be my year of years ( I think i have said year enough) and I think of lost love one night stands and the horrible mistakes I have made.

I grew up in a smallish town in Kent on the coast where everyone knows everyone and you can't sneeze without everyone knowing about it the next bloody day so when I was bad I was the talk of the town people I had never meet would know who I was and would say hi to me when walking in town or if I walked in to the pub would buy me a drink and want to talk and ask me about utter crap,

So I had to move away to a city to a different country to start fresh where no one knows my name or my past that haunts me everyday.

So I decided to write about it I really don't care who reads it and I will change all names so I don't start drama I dont bloody want or need I just want to tell my story and let it all go for once and for all its like therapy for the soul.